4 Stages of Moving On from Past Relationship

           Hey its me again, well its only gonna be me here, nobody else kay..haha.. Well, life has offered me lots of new things, new experiences, new faces n new environment. First of all i met some guys who have tried knocking on my closed door, but not being able to open it even for a bit. For a guy named anonymous who's been maddling with my life, ur attitudes making its easier for me to just threw u so so far away from my life.
           I wanted to make this as a REMINDER for me not to ever fall for his tricks n lies. Honestly, he lost me, yes he did, 100%. I dont have even a slightest tiny weeny feelings for him anymore, seriously, i feel that he's nothing in my life. I just dont value his existence in my life anymore (except to fix my car). But somehow I took those experiences I had with him as lessons for me to learn from. As Rihanna said "Never a mistake, always a lesson".
          At least, I have some experiences to gain from this relationship rather than having zero knowledge about guys n relationships. About ups n downs, loved n to be loved, to be lied n cheated, to be left n neglected n lastly to realize the fact that we were just not meant to be with each other no matter how we tried. He's not meant for me, and im just not meant for him. To get up when ure so down, to move on when u were still so sad and to accept the fact that its over. Its the end of the road for both of us. However, a dead end doesnt mean ur life stops there but "A dead end is just a good place to turn around" - Naomi Judd.
          It becomes a new start for me in my life, to be wiser, better and stronger. Plus, to guide my heart by not giving it so easily to anyone after this. The last text he gave to me, which was last week was : "..u hv sum1 who is lovg u silently, it's me". Whatever dude! Whether u love me silently or loudly, it doesnt matter anymore, cuz i dont give a damn on what u say. Cuz whatever u said is bullsh*t. Anything I knew right now, if I only knew back then, it is getting over u. Dude, u lost me.

After this whole experience, I learned that it takes 4 stages before u really get over someone and being able to move on. Take note:

1, Firstly, after u broke up, or he left u, u started to blame urself. Ie: it was ur fault that caused the break up, u were wrong n he was right, ure the bad person n he's the good one, u have lots of flaws n he's just perfect(which is bullsh*t) n u started to think that ure just not good enough for him.U want him to be happy in whatever he does.

2. Secondly, u started to realize that its not ur fault at all, its his fault. He's the one who ruins this relationship in the first place, he's the one who cheated on u, who lied, who neglected u. He's to be blame, not u. u have been nice to him, loyal and honest but he broke ur trust and ur heart into pieces. And who the hell does he think he is? And to treat u like that? At this stage, its clearer to u that he's not worth all the crying ok. U become stronger. U want him to suffer as much as u did, u want him to get some lesson for treating u badly, and u dont want him to b happy.

3. Thirdly, even though ure mad and angry at him, it doesnt mean that ure able to move on, YET. Somehow, in ur heart, u still have some hope that he would come back to u. That he would love u and u still want to be together with him. At this stage, if he does come back, u probably will accept. When u met him and he asked for ur forgiveness, u would point out his fault, u would be angry with him because somehow u still love him and u wanted him to improve, to be better n to change himself just for u. *Girls, guys are just who they r, they wont change for u, if he's like that, he IS like that, if u still want to b with him, then u have to stick with his attitude for the rest of ur life* so no use of u trying to change him, cuz if he sucks, HE IS SUCKS, trust me.

4. Well, after u've done all that, most probably the result is : he's not getting any better, dont put ur hopes so high on him, he wont be a better person just by listening to what u say. He's the same loser who broke ur heart. And this is the last stage: u see him as a person who just not worth to be with. U started to realize that u wouldnt want to spend even for a second with him anymore lagi-lagilah for the rest of ur life with him, to see how lucky u r to get out from this relationship, to realize how stupid u r when ure with him, to see that he's a jerk and a bastard who doesn't deserve u at all. Now, at this very moment, u wont feel anything anymore. He had lost u completely, n u had lost him completely. U dont even care about him anymore. U dont value his existence anymore. He is dead to u.

* Now, Congrats urself, now it is confirmed that u have MOVE ON. How bout a round of applause, standing ovation for ur highest achievements! Clap, clap, clap. Whatever it is, girl or boy, dont ever punish urself by sticking the same person who dont treat u well cuz u deserve better, no, u deserve the best in ur life!

#some.notes: Do u know that there is someone better out there who's meant for u but still not able to find u yet until the time comes. n that time only comes when u r out of that old relationship. trust me. Cheers~  =D

Raya.2010.celebration

Assalamualaikum,
Since its Raya Aidilfitri, Im going to be a well-mannered person right now. Not that I'm rude, well I'm just respecting the month. Well, to those who don't know what Raya celebration is, it is a day celebrated by Muslims all over the world after fasting for 1month in the month of Ramadhan. Google it if u wanna know more.
I have a wonderful raya this year. Thanks to Allah, I have some close friends who made my day better everyday. I'm so in love with my friends, if i can marry them, i would, how twisted is that? haha.. joking.. Im happy n i felt content for the times I spend in kuching, even its only for 2weeks..

# small.notes: I learn sth new today, we should use Ya Allah instead of OMG, Alhamdulillah instead of thank God. We got influenced by the western so much that we changed Allah to God. And actually that is wrong. So, guys, lets gat back to using Allah, Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahuakbar! =)

Just.started

Im a blogger now! Cool. Im gonna have so much fun with this! *only when the connection is fast*
(Bummer! *_*) Btw, Im blogging just for fun, just for myself n anyone who matters. Feel free to read. There'll be certain times that I'll be active in blogging, n most of the times where I'll be inactive. My blog would be a "hot-n-cold" ones. I'll write depending on my mood swings. But most of the times, I wont write anything I guess. Just that, its a pleasure for me to have one. And whatever Im gonna say or write here comes purely from my inner thoughts and sometimes it might hurt others and at the same time it might inspired them. So, yeah, whatever it is, just bear with it, live with it, suck it in. No offence. Cheers~ =)

# small.notes: Happy Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf zahir & batin. May Allah bless all of us.